im not always gonna be happy

i have many flaws n many ups n downs. my attitude goes from 0 to 10 with in seconds, its uncontrolable sometimes i jus get so pissed off i dont kno what to do with my self. there have been many times where i have gotten so mad that ive cried. as sad as it seems ive lived to face another day right. sometimes ppl jus dont kno how to communicate wit me n thats fine i do admit that i dont kno how to express myself as much as i should. well sometimes i dont kno how to express myself at all.

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it might seem as though im always tryna find love. but i think ive found it im jus afraid i might lose it. jus becuz of the arguement. and shit that doesnt get solved. we jus fight n make up nothin gets resolved. so constantly i have the same feelings n they jus dwell all over my mind n more n more they build. constantly hurting me.

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how can i get back to where i uses to b. HAPPY. not saying that im not happy i am very happy. its just sometimes i dont kno how to handle things that hurt me. i wish i could jus express my self. its hard to explain. ive jus realized i cant always be happy i guess.

Phresh

Damn. So its been like almost 3 months n like i go out wit this guy who at this point shall remain nameless maybe ill name him in a few. but who would have thought that i ☆☆«·´`·.(*·.¸☆Ｑu33и КiΣяя∀★¸.·*).·´`·»☆☆ would have fell as hard as i fell with in a few short months 4 to be exact. I neva knew that I'd actually find someone that i so into my ♡ stopped when i couldn't get in contact with him. That's crazy. I was like a nigga before i met him i mean my thing was fuck niggas n fuck their hearts becuz i kno they don't care about mine. I uses to love that life style cuz it was like i couldn't get my ♥ broken n i can't get caught up or mad if he's fuckin wit the next bitch or if I'm doin what i think he's doin but now I'm on that i love him n I'm neva gonna leave him cuz that's how i really feel. Once a heartless cold blooded bitch turned lover that's crazy. Like what makes it as crazy as it is, is that everyone thought that i would always be on my i don't give a fuck about ur feelins or i don't give a fuck about shit. But i actually do. N i don't cheat. meaning i really care about him becuz Ｓ:-(ＲＲＹ to say but there have been times when i didn't really care about the person enough to not cheat but damn I'm not that girl no more. I'm actually a BREATHLESS LOVeR n i actually like the feelin of being in lOVe especially wit him damn that's my kINg. I LOVe him so MUch I'd give my worlD up jus so that his has no sadness. Cuz when i look in his eyes all the evils in the world go away. im def in LoVE With King PHresh.

SKOOL

life is pretty awesome some times. well that's it exactly what it is but only sometimes. seems like ever since i left skool I've been missing it like crazy. not the work but just being there. but although i miss it i sometimes don't wanna go back, just becuz I'm have a lot more fun not doing work or doing anything honestly. I've become lazy ill admit it. but although this is true i still wanna be in skool. ugh cant wait to go back